Monday, September 13, 2010
I write this as we are awaiting on a phone call. The phone call is in regards to a great job opportunity that I interviewed for a couple of weeks ago. A job that will place us closer to both of our wonderful families. It is such an emotional roller coaster when you are waiting for something so big to happen. You go through the emotions of being excited because it feels so close at times, then being down when you doubt that it can really happen, and you even start thinking about plan B. As I write this am not 10o% that I will receive this job. In my head I am replaying every word that was said by the manager that interviewed me and analyzing it. What did she really mean when she said that? Was she inferring that the job was mine?Did she not want to be honest with me and tell me she is no longer interested?
Then I hear the great and ultimate voice of my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ: Daughter, Know that no matter what happens with this specific job opportunity I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future(Jer 29:11).So seek first my kingdom and my righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well(Matt6:33). I the LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged(Deut 31:8). I repeat myself do not be afraid or discouraged ..... for the battle is not yours, but mines(2Chron 20:15). Continue to delight yourself in me and I will give you the desires of your heart(psalm 37:4).I will meet all your needs according to my glorious riches in Christ Jesus(Phil 4:19).
My response after hearing the Lord's voice: Lord, I apologize for any doubt or disbelief that has lead me astray from standing on your great and sovereign word. Your hand is totally on my life and my families'. You are the one that is in control and you only have the best in store for me. Though I may plan my ways you ultimately order my steps. I do not know what tomorrow brings but I know that you will be there and that is all that matters. You love me so much, I thank you today for you love. I also thank you in advance for opening this door or I thank you in advance for closing it. I praise you because you are much wiser, smarter, and divine than I will ever understand. There is one thing I totally understand at this exact moment, it is that you are in complete control. There is no one more awesome, magnificent, and perfect than you. I thank and praise you for leading my life in the right direction and I choose to believe that your timing is also so excellent.I love you. Amen